12/16/12

Well I've been thinking a lot about surgery.  I haven't changed my mind at all, but it seems to always be on my mind now.  Meeting with the hospital staff, talking to the HealthPartners nurses for my phone appointments and just talking with friends....well...it just keeps me thinking.  I am very glad I made this decision.  It seems to be coming up so fast now....I mean this week will be busy at school, then a week of winter break, then New Years...then it will only be a month till surgery.  I am excited, anxious, happy, nervous...so many emotions.  I am trying to incorporate new habits into my daily routine so that they will already be habit after surgery.  I feel this need to share my good news with others but don't because I'm nervous....and as has always happened, I fear that I will fail at yet another attempt to lose weight.  But it's starting to become real...there is no "cheating" on this "plan".  There is no putting myself last.  It is important to me to set a good example to my boys and it's important to me to be able to be active with them.  That can only happen if I make it happen.  I feel blessed that this decision and the support of my friends and family has made the process so easy.  I have had and continue to have a peace about it all.....even in light of all the emotions.   Thank you to God for his blessings and to all my friends and family for their support!